i haf fun today ..
i went out with my 2 darling cousins..

so nice..
after so long finally i gg out with them ..

ever since i startted prcp and working..

i hardly hang out with them.

if i'm nt wrong, last gathering is during my god ma treat in this yr 2008.

but we wasnt so close at that point of time wor ..

but tdy, we get close again.....
eat, laugh, chat..

we went to this restuarant @
tonkichi@ suntec city ..
it's opposite the kenny roger ..

other branches at isetan and ngee ann city

the food is nice ..
hehe ..
can consider big portion too ..
cox de 3 of us shared our meal
but somehow, in de end,
i didnt managed to finish the food also
but was forced by my cousin to finised

first time in my life, i finish my set meal !

haha haha ..

de food is nice is cox i ate with them ..
the enjoyment of eating ...
the joy and the laughter ..

de food i order was chicken toji .. in a claypot one ..
was lie by the boss( cox i went to ask her, wad do u recommend) so she say try toji( claypot stuff) den so i tot it must be a try food ..

i chose chicken cox i dont really like pork but she emphasis that we're specialised in pork but i tot nth wrong with chicken haha
den who noes..

in de end, somehow i regretted the chicken meat really not nice wor....

cox the sauce is kinda too sweet for me ..

not really as tasty as the mix safood ( sujun's food) and curry pork(tong food) ..

but in de conclusion

i still enjoyed my dinner cox with my cousins..

love them boths ..

now, i shall let the pic talk =)
*ps is at the top of this blog.

hello ..

ng tube insertion.
i bet all nurse haf come thru and been assessed for it ..
..
it may be easy for some ppl to insert .. afterall the person u insert is nt u mah ..


but tdy..
is my induction program
and one of the event is regarding ng tube insertion

i volunteer myself to be the one who kena inserted ..

i know u must be thinking so dumb to volunteer urself ..

but nope
tis is wad tink
to go thru urself den u'll noe how actually the pt feel ..

the pain and de discomfort de pt feel ..

let me share my experience with u ppl k ..

i feel so excited wen i sit there waiting to be inserted..
i can feel that my heart is pounding veri fast.
finally wen my friend is done with the preparation

here come the insertion
initially was fine..
but wen it hit the nostril and go dwn..
i feel that it's really umcomfortable for me ..
but i bear it ..
becox i wanna see how deep can i tolerate the procedure..
yeah
i endure
but wen it start to coil at the back of my throat, i feel that i'm choking and going to stop breathing
so i quickly ask my colleague to pull it out,
wen i saw the tube, it stain with blood..
it's normal becox it can be easily traumatised de ..

so in conclusion,
the feeling of insertion of ng tube was there,
it was really uncomfortable and pain wen it goes in ...
tml now i feel that my nostril is one big, one small..
hahaha
crazy i noe ..
i was thinking size 12 was used on us ..
wad abt those who kena inserted even bigger size..
it must be veri traumatised by it ..

..
now i noe, de feeling of it ..
nxt i feel like trying ivc on myself haha
haha haha

i noe i'm crazy enuff ..
but it's like u must feel it so that u understand how pt feel =X hehe hehe
i must be mad hehe hehe hhehe

it's been a since i last blog..
been watching the news..

now everywhere is in a mess..
every country has strike with a natural disaster..

everywhere..

i wish i could go and help ..
using my bare hands to save as many ppl as i can ..
however, my skill wasnt good ..
bad in it ..

sometime i just feel stupid stupid

feel so sad for them ... ..

pray hard for all these naturall disaster to go away ..
...

life wasnt easy for them ...

i dunno why..
i really dunno wad to do ..

i feel like an useless idiot now ..
totally depressed and shag ..
i feel so hurt wen i tink of the words..
flashing thru my mind .

why i cant be the time wen i'm back to young.
i dun nid to grow up .

yeah

u can say that i'm a useless ass hole ..
a mountain turtle..

i hide myself up wen there is a problem !

but i just dunno wad to do that it ..

i wore a SN uniform but i dun behave like one!

it's an hurting phrase !

yeah ..

mayb tis is my mindset ..

critical area mean u're dying soon!

i just dunno now!

frm now on , i tell myself, i nid to learn as much as i can, to observe as much as i can !
as fast as a cheetah !
to improve on my behaviour!

i just want to be it that way!

i just dunno wad to do ...

i feel like gifing up, but my pride telling me not to becox i dun want to be defeated so easily !
haha
that's what i'm born to be ! my stubborn somehow will kill me one day !


"dis are obstacles preventing me from reaching my dream!"
"i will definitely win in the end!"

the encouraging phrase somehow help me alot. thanks u

i dunno why i just feel like blogging tdy ..
i feel that my heart is so weird so weird ..
all the worries suddenly just come out ..
i've been wondering ..
m i able to make it thru this 6 months ?

simply just wondered !

tdy i feel that i was totally lousy ..
really lousy !!!
really lousy !!!!
such an failure ..

i eventually totally blank out in critical area !
blank out as in i dunno wad to do so i just stood there..
arrgh
the preceptor teach me wad to do..
everyday i just faced new thing ..

after everyting ...
she gif me time to tink ..
reflection time ..
how do i perform tdy ?
wad i can say is ..
yesh.. i perform badly !!!!
i admit to her ..
i could haf been better ..
in overall, i nid to buck up on my theory and knowledge..
i couldnt be so stoning !
i must learn to work hard..
arrgh !
i must learn !!!

she said, i can function at p2 but p1 i still alot of practices . ..
i still nid to practices alot !

5 month to go !
hai ..
i just feel that mayb i nt suitable as a nurse =(

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this little pic mean alot to me..
it actually show how much i miss euu ..

the one mention handmade my denise .. i show u

it's pic time ..
some of the pic is taken frm melb( me and baby)
the photo of my frends and my present, given by them. handmade by denise.
the car .. my dream =)
i'll posst more nxt time

hello ..
it's been a while i ever last blog ..

come to tink of it..
i've been working as a staff nurse since one month le ..
for tis one month, i can really FEEL the pressure ..
u've to be fast, to do as quick as u can ..
no matter wad .. u just nid to be quick ..
working in ed, was really a no jk tingy ..

till tdy, i still find myself working pace veri slow ..
as in the way i react to situation is veri straightforward..
which mean whenever there is a situation outbreak, i dunno wad to do ..
as in i'm tinking.. wad happen if one day a person SPO2 drop while transferring ?
u never noe right ?
nowaday pt health is so hard to say .. yeah ..
just wonder one day wad will happen if i'm dump to p1 myself !!
really myself..
standby case .. sure guarantee freak out one ..

i rmb that day i was in p1 ..
frm 10 onwards.. my standby case was non stop..
happen to be all the senior are doing one standby each .. and simply just leave me alone ..
and there is another standby coming in ..
my senior wanted to do the standby for me. but my sis( nursing officer) came in and say let kelly do tis standby ...
w/o any hesitate, i prepare all the airway .. whereelse, my sis take all the drugs..
i guess we've to worked and attend all the in services talk b4 we can be qualified as a nurse wor ..

ytd i went to CT scan ..
again i was alone ..
with a doc, porter and myself
initially is my frend go but who noes, my sis ask me to go in de end,
i admitted that tis is a rare opportunity for us as we're so called "newbie".... newly graduated frm poly mah..
so i just go lo ..
thing we prepared by my sis..
so happily.. i went for the CT scan ..

but wen we reached there, my porter dunno how to place all the ting .. nvm nvm
i tot at least the doc can help
but who noes .
lucky worst !
haha haha
stand far far and see me .. ordering me like no body business de wor ..
first time i see !
hehe hehe.
nvm ..
i settled all the ting den i went in to the room ..
out of my curiousity, i looked at the scan
tell me tis " ur focus shld be there" yeah it's truth but i'm monitoring my pt at the same time as i looked at the screen
and i only look for 3 mins ..
so i tell myself .
i also dun understand so better focus on my ting bah..

i just dun understand why ..
doc and nurse are human ..
dey've to gif us a attitude as if dey're much more better than us !
one day if dey dun haf nurse, i see how dey're going to function in tis world..
most of the ting, is done by our nurse ! arrgh !
let it go bah =)

hearing frm denise that, someting happen to fiona..
such a poor ting man ..
hope she's is okie and feel better .... ..

i just hope that the journy of our nurse life will sail smoothly as many year as possible .. =)