finally i got my staff nurse uniform..
however, i dun even feel like wearing it at all ..
the mood wasnt right at all ..
totally different!
i'm afraid of wearing the uniform..

is nt that i worry that the stress will be on me
but i feel so frightened!
i feel that i'm totally nt prepared to be one !

i feel like i'm a loser
a big sore loser ..
u noe !
everyone tell me that dey're afraid, i'm able to talk to them
but it come to me, *FAINTED*
i cant make it ..
i dunno why why why

i tried to escape frm it !
i tell all my sister nxt week nxt week
7 april 08 den can wear
but dey ask me abt the uniform
i was like telling them tml den can take lo ..
but now i got it !
wad m i suppose to do ?

can someone shake me up?
like wake me up frm the fear?
i noe ..
others can do it , why cant i ?
it's that i'm lacking of confident ..
i dunno wad to say ..
pl are so excited to wear uniform but me chose to remain the same ..
i noe i'm a coward ..
i admitted it ..
just gif me sometime,
i'll learn how to do it ..
i tried my best to overcome my fear
cox i guess tml i'll be wearing the uniform!
i reluctuant to do so !

i'm signing off to tink abt it ..
hai ..
i've to overcome my fear ..
that day haf really arrived and come ..
do it or leave it .. !